i wished and hoped for the best , of course , i do want the best .

imma normal human being . i dont have special powers .
im imperfect , and i do make mistakes , lots of 'em .
i dont see the point in me keeping quiet and bear with your nonsense when i could fight for whats right , my right .
but you said i was different . when i actually think that you're the one being annoying .
maybe i was , but helloh , you cant expect me being the nicenice fella all the time right ? i was just saying what i think from what you said . so does that make me the one at fault ?
oh please . yes , i can be the super nice friend to you , but think . i have feelings too , and you shld understand me , too . i cant be the one who always gives in to all your whateverrrr craps and neglect my own feelings , right ? come on , think on my part too lah . dont be so heartless . im sorry , i didnt do what you asked cause i really was pissed with you that day . if you think im still your friend , prove to me that you really are my friend . well if you dont , then lets bid our goodbye . im fine with it . and again , i apologise cause i know i was irritating that day . sorry .
(THIS IS NOT REFERRING TO MY BOYFRIEND , NOTE THAT!)


okay , im having lots in mind right now , and i cant figure out any solution fr them . its not easy .
i have too many things to do , but im lacking of time . its so hard to face all this , when i should have other more important stuffs to think of . i really hate how life is now . something's not right , either here , or there . i wanna have a better life , but things went wrong , just so wrong . i've been sighing too much , way too much . im not myself these days , and im sorry , just to whoever , who feels offended by me . i'll have to work on many things , i wont state what .
most importantly , my love life , my studies . family hasnt been too huge of a problem to me , so i'll put aside all others , and focus on - . raya's coming , exams too .
its really bothering many , i dare say . i dont wanna give trouble to anyone now , i wanna make things right , i wanna change . pardon me if im cold to anyone .

lets drop the unhappy thoughts , and lets welcome hari raya warmly .
im going back to kampong this year . its my first time , and it'll not be the last . cause granny's there now , so we'll want to celebrate with her there . :(
so yes , i'll be going back there on Saturday . and idk when i'll come back to Spore . it wont be long cause of course there'll be cousins who'll have to leave early for work's sake . so yeahh , im kinda eggcited , cause it feels so nice celebrating at a kampong . never did before , so i think it'll be great , with lotsaaa cousins , families going there too ! :D
woohoo , its friggin' three more days , yay ! then it'll be hooray for all . no more fasting , no more 'this cannot , that cannot' (HAHA!) , and lalalaa~ (((((:

lets partayyeee !

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