Friday, February 5, 2010 @ 11:20 PM
Title : i gotta be strong
gundu ah this one ! hahaha
hi helloh all .
llife's been rather personal these days .
i'd rather not talk about it .
so yeah , today's one superrr long day . but today made me love fridays
i enjoyed cny dance rehearsal though wasnt in the best condition
and to our relieve , choreography's completed . just brushing up and poof ! (:
then it was art all the way till 7 ?
great . thanks aiman for the panadol and i felt better in minutes that i can go round bothering people again :P
i like .
then ended off w webcam pictures w the crazy fellas . enjoy .
total retardness = mandokk and mokk :D
more in the other Pc(s) and we didnt have the time to get them all too bad.
people(s) , i do not wish to answer any questions regarding what happened today , and i hope you understand so stop bugging me to tell cause im not . and im sorry yh and boys that im so weak till i eventually cried for the idk how many times in front of you people in public . sorry . im sucha hastle , but im trynna change that . however , thank you all for the care concern attention and friendship .
all in all , her words are still lingering ard in my head . she knows what lies behind my heart and there isnt any way i could hide which i wish i could . i didnt want it to be this way , no . i didnt want to cry in front of people , friends , mates , teachers , but i have no choice . though , i appreciate that i have such teacher around w me , to guide me thru this hard life . i know she meant well and i wanna listen to her advice . i wanna be a good girl and not defy family's talk . i wanna stop lying , i wanna prove everyone wrong and show that im capable of succeeding . i wanna be successful just like them even if i dont have a perfect family . i wanna achieve all this and be a happy girl and lead my own life . i wanna get married and have childrens and ensure that i wont let my childrens live the way i did . and thats a promise . someway somewhat , im touched by her text msges cause i know someone's behind me . she understands me most that she could actually help me in lying . at least this once . i dont wanna disappoint her , nor mama . i love her and i wanna end her pains and sufferings . i just wished one day , i could open up my heart and tell her how much she mean to me . thank you , teacher .
lastly , Happy Birthday Izzat !
